One of my favorite rappers of all time is Tupac. Tupac had and still has a huge influence on me, not just because I like his music, but because of his passion and willingness to be bold in his life. It seemed to me that he lived fearlessly, and while it got him into trouble from time to time, he was able to touch so many lives in a meaningful way.
Tupac was a man of God, but not a typical man of God. He was from the streets and spoke to his people. He would thank God in his interviews and his faith and trust in God gave him tremendous courage.
I relate to Tupac because I am a man of faith, but I am for sure not pure. The truth is I am full of material desires, but I also have a love of God. Do I love God to the extent of Jesus Christ, Srila Prabhupada or Lord Siva? no I cannot say I do, I am a mere mortal.
The idea I am conveying here is that you do not have to be pure to start your journey towards God. You have to start wherever you are. Whether you are sitting in the prison cell, smoking a joint or watching hours of porn, start to inject God into your life.
If these things bring you some pleasure, then thank God for that pleasure as he is the source of all pleasure. Once you start to dove-tail your activities with Love of God, he will help you elevate to new heights in your life, and who knows, maybe one day you will also become a pure soul.
As for now, keep praying and keep smiling and like Tupac, don’t be afraid to be who you are in this world.
Your Eternal Servant